Не выдавить из себя и слова по-русски... Наверное, спойлерно местами..It's emotional. It's very sensual. Condition of self-fracture. When you don't know how to go on living and go on feeling life. When damage is done and you have to recover somehow. No idea how to do that. Crying. Falling apart. Being lost and helpless. Being between Devil and the deep blue sea. To feel passion or to fade without it. To live or to.. stop living.
When she asks him to stay with her for just one last night and he said he can't because he will feel lost - it truely seems like I can understand this. Because I actually saw that, didn't feel but saw. I was the one asking..
And this terrible female feeling when she asks for one last time to spend a few more hours with someone she eternally love and facing the truth that he is already literally gone - I feel the hole in my chest instead of her.. so painful, so harmful.. so truely. The only difference between me and her - subconsciously she has made this decision to end the story by herself before everything happened. Then she realized that may be she doesn't want this happening but that was too late already.. I have never made such decision, but I felt this and I smelled this air of someone you love leaving.. leaving forever.
And I was looking into his eyes in the last scene and I cried. I cried for her, may be even for myself feeling her.. So terrifyingly sad... So terrifyingly devastated..
All their dialogs felt so close - from the love-birth time and till the last moment. Their last-evening conversation imprinted in my mind, I was listenning and it almost felt like he was saying goodbye forever to me, so I cried and asked not to leave..
I never expected that this film is going to impress me so much. It turned up very personal to me. I'm rewatching and pouring again..
10/10.